hello again

today..i almost cried when i was talking about you. i've been good about not crying, but i know there will be times when i just can't help myself and cry. i know it is okay to cry but what does that mean? i know i will always love you and there will always be a place for you in my heart. that will never change. how am i suppose to feel? i'm torn between feeling hurt and love? which is more? what sucks is that i understand how you are feeling... that even hurts more. i should or need to stop feeling this way. just let it be, lee. it's easier said than done. oh well, let's just be patient and see what happens.