hello again

i know that was you on the road. why did i turn away? even a glimpse of you would have made me smile. i guess i didn't want to cry. i miss you so much. be strong lee.

hello again

today..i almost cried when i was talking about you. i've been good about not crying, but i know there will be times when i just can't help myself and cry. i know it is okay to cry but what does that mean? i know i will always love you and there will always be a place for you in my heart. that will never change. how am i suppose to feel? i'm torn between feeling hurt and love? which is more? what sucks is that i understand how you are feeling... that even hurts more. i should or need to stop feeling this way. just let it be, lee. it's easier said than done. oh well, let's just be patient and see what happens.

another day...

the first day back wasn't so bad...i only yelled a couple of times..hehe! so many things remind me of you. sometimes i don't know what to do but i know what i have to do. does that make any sense at all? should i be upset at you? i don't know? what to do?

hello world!

this is my first time to blog, so here goes! i wanted a place (other than facebook or twitter) to write down my thoughts and ideas. i've thought of blogging before but never really got a chance to. although i know family and friends are near, it's always good to just write down what you really want to say and not expect a resp.onse. is that weird? oh well...there's just things that i want to say (even though it's going to hurt someone). i think it's more healthy to even just write them down so it's not building up inside of me. and too, this is a good place to start writing the novel i dreamt of finishing someday. well, here's to the start...of something new!